I agree, this is a global economy, and most people do pay their bills electronically, which I would have no problem doing, but my BILLS are what is causing me to not have the resources to go anywhere. Add to that the fact that I don't have the first clue where I want to go, and that I have to have a job there, and a place to live BEFORE I get to this place I don't know and honestly, I just get so overwhelmed that I don't have the first clue what to do.

Not only that, but if I'm having so much trouble HERE, (somewhat) in the bosom of my family, how will I ever make it anywhere else, all alone? 

I know I seem like the world's worst whiner, but this is the only place I know where I can come and vent all my worries and fears and insecurities and there might be someone who understands.  No one seems to be able to really get where I'm coming from around here.

I also apologize to all of you who read my blog whose problems are so much worse than mine, I know I really don't have that much to complain about, especially when you take your much worse problems in stride with hardly a complaint.

I guess it all boils down to the fact that I'm just not happy with my situation, and don't know what to do to make it better.  I'm looking for a new job, one that I don't have to work nights and weekends, because that's depressing me some too, but I'm not having much luck there. 

I'd like to move somewhere more West of here, more country than city, to a little house that I can afford, working a Mon-Fri job that pays enough to meet my expenses with juat enough left over so that I can start saving a little (for emergencies, like the one's I've had recently) and have just a little spending money.  I'm not really asking for something elaborate, nothing grand.  Just a chance at a decent life, one I can be content with.

My boyfriend says he wants to move too, but whether he's serious, I don't know.  I know that I want to, and if he wants to come along for the ride, that's fine with me. 

The problem isn't knowing what I want, it's knowing how to get it.

Any suggestions? ;)